Another day of nothing much to say. I allowed myself a peaceful moment today. I have been so upset over what happened and so stressed over myself feeling that others were pushing me to just “get over it”. I realized today that I am on no one’s timeframe except my own and that I can […]

Today is going to be a hard day, guys. I had nightmares, I can’t stop thinking about all the stupid mistakes I’ve made. I keep filling up inside with anger and resentment and sadness. I am now trying to convince myself that he’s dead. I think I could cope better that way, I mean, I […]

Nothing to say, I am tired. My muscles ache slightly. Since Wednesday all I have eaten is a couple handfuls of pretzels, a single bite of a scrambled egg, a bite of mashed potatoes, and a couple fries. When I eat, I just feel sick. I don’t know what I am doing. I broke like […]

I have no one to talk about this with. I hate it, I do. I feel very alone. I am sitting in my car, in the dark, and my mind is in a very dark place. I am angry that Bi- took away my power and my voice. He took away every single avenue that […]

Fuck you. GOD DAMNIT, FUCK YOU. This has been the most fucked up day. Why the fuck do you hate me, existence?! Please for the love of the gods, PLEASE just leave me alone. Please go away. First I am blocked on someone social media accounts and phone because WHY THE FUCK!? Am I truly […]

This is the first day of a new chapter. Today I came up with the first line of my memoir. I am excited about the author that is writing for me, I can’t tell you how exceptional he is. Ready? Here it is… I am as close to a Superhero as a human can be. […]