It has occurred to me that general journaling doesn’t seem to work well for me over a long-scale approach. When I write, I typically have a recipient in mind and pointed words that I wish I could say, but for whatever reason, do not have the avenue to say those things. Thus, those words stay […]
I think I am going to approach journaling in a different way. What do I really need to say? To whom do I need to say it to? I think I will just start over with Letters To X. I feel like…I’m never going to be able to move past this trauma. It’s like my […]
I just woke from more nightmares. i just want to feel ok again. i can’t keep going like this, god my heart hurts. I feel like I’ve lost an entire half of myself. what the fuck do I do now? someone please help me.
Let it be known that I have experienced my first wildfire event. I ordered breathing masks for myself and my dog. The air quality sucks and the house filled with smoke last night. There was no escaping it and all you want is a breath of fresh air but there is no where you can […]
I relapsed tonight. Had a weak moment, cried it out in the bathroom. I’m going to be ok, I just resent that things have to be this way. I’m overwhelmingly sad because I lose people that I love and knowing that I will die without every knowing them again just kills me, man. This one […]
It’s past midnight and I just finished one of the two major projects that are due for school by Tuesday. I missed ballet for the first time and missed a cosplay event…and I can’t tell you how many hours of sleep I’ve missed these last few days. Tomorrow morning, I will continue on with the […]
Forewarning, this is probably about to get depressing as fuck although I don’t feel very depressed. This is the thought I have in my head. If someone took the time and effort to block me off Facebook, Instagram, SnapChat, Venmo, PayPal, their Phone, their Email, their blog, our Adobe account, our joint website…it seems to […]
PW and I went on our normal early morning walk and a Jason Mraz song came across my earbuds. I am not a great fan of his music, but I enjoyed the lyrics to this song (I Won’t Give Up). Much of the song resonated with me but I think it could be even better […]
It’s 2:30am. I just had a panic attack from a nightmare. I vomited. When will this stop?
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