Tired is a good word to use for how I feel today. Coming off the holiday rush is like finally handing over the kids you’ve been babysitting for an entire day. You crawl into bed…and you just don’t come out for an entire day. Sometimes I wonder if it’s age-related, laziness, or hard-life-related as to […]
Bi-, I hope this letter will be my last entry in this chapter of my life. Although I do not agree with your decision, I do respect it. So, I will let you go. Before I lock away this chapter, there is a lot I need to say. I know that the likelihood of you […]
Please tell me that I can get through this day. I need the willpower to get out of this bed. Ugh, I can do this. I can do this. I will do this. The most important thing I can do today for myself is get out of this bed. Just focus on one step at […]
What a dichotomy – the people who come in and out of my life. It seems that the ones I fall for are the ones who leave and the ones I don’t fall for are the ones who stay. Why is it that I fall in love with the people who leave me? I obviously […]
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It’s a sunny day but…I can’t seem to feel it. I took a picture of this Cypress tree today. It’s just about as lonely as I am. But you know, this Cypress tree has been standing here since 1919. It’s resilient. And so am I.
I am disappointed in myself. I feel like an idiot for having hope. Half of me wants to force myself to forget him and the other half wants to force myself to hold out because it will be worth it. The truth is, I am an idiot. A heartbroken stupid girl with stupid feelings and I […]
Today is going to be a bad day. I was plagued by nightmares all night. Kept waking up in sweats, heart racing, feeling emotional turmoil. I fucking hate this hole in my chest. And even more, I realized a major fact yesterday…that people can paint themselves up and pretend to be someone they’re not, but […]
Keep it together, girl. That’s what I’ve had to repeat to myself over and over today. I keep running into reminders of…you know. Then I start to cry, and then I remember I am not a weak girl and I can get through this day. It all still hurts like a fresh wound. I sit […]
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