It’s the month of June and I’m in your favorite sundress

Looking down from the bridge

I’m not really sure what I’m doing this for

In the night, in the dark, in the cold, with the wailing of wind

Everyone feels so far away from me

And I close my eyes because I’m feeling sad

I stay up through the nights so I can avoid the nightmares

I don’t like waking up in this wallowing

and feeling anything now is like a dandelion on a breeze

You accept it when it glances your attention

and then it just disappears

Just like you

Sitting on this bridge

Wishing that I was somewhere else

Thinking dark thoughts that I know are bad

But some things you do for money

And some you do for love

And some you do because it hurts just to get out of bed

The truth is that you are a perpetual feeling

and I want to say your name but the pain starts when I try

And sounds get stuck in my throat, choking me

I flash back to that week

When I looked up from the ground to see your sad eyes

You looked away from me and I could see

I could see

that you were leaving with no warning

that time would freeze for me

that nothing would heal this

And so I wonder if you ever think about me

As I can’t escape what could have been

I only see you in all that I do and that’s defeating

I hurt because I don’t know the cause

I hurt because I still care

And I never thought

Never thought that I would be part of something

that I never felt was going to end

But of course…it did

Now I am looking down from the bridge

Where it’s an easy place to hide

Where I’m never alone and yet alone all of the time

And where one step forward will put me right into the past