I am disappointed in myself. I feel like an idiot for having hope. Half of me wants to force myself to forget him and the other half wants to force myself to hold out because it will be worth it.

The truth is, I am an idiot. A heartbroken stupid girl with stupid feelings and I allow myself to get taken advantage of because I trust too easily and I fucking go into shit at 110%.

I’m so done with this pain sitting in my chest. You’re not the person I thought you were, and I need to believe it instead of lying to myself over and over and over…and over.

Im ready to shut the world out. For good. I’m not getting hurt like this ever again.